yesterday is V-DAY.

how are your getting along with your vday?

i had an awesome one (:

thanks baby!

for the necklace and baggy. :P

i have been going through sleepless nights for so many days.

insomia.

cannot take it sometimes. :(

body-clock went heywire.

=(

i've been happy all these while.

sometimes, happiness dont always come forever for you.

simple life can always be happier with those who has a colourful life, aint it?

i always thought i am not any better than many people.

i have no talents.

i have no pretty face.

i have no tall and lanky body.

i have no feminity in me.
i have no sense of anything, perhaps humor?

i have no lovable face for people to love me.

so much "have-no(s)"

but i have a heart to listen myself.

when inferiority comes into me,

i will tell myself: jaclyn, you are called jaclyn. not anyone else.

love me or not, its up to people.

(:

maybe this is the way that i can pacify myself. (:

till then,

LOVES.

its tuesday.

its wanqin bdae.

though she cant see this entry..

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO HER. (:

going out with gdfriend later!

woohoo!

(: (: thanks gdfriend!

you know what i mean! ^^

after my short meet up with her,

i'm meeting baby after his driving.

yay! its been more than 24 hrs since i last saw my baby.

hahah. call me crazy.
call me silly. i just love to see him EVERYDAY. (:

but i know i cant.

coz i need to learn the days when he is in NS.

hehehe.

till then,

LOVES!

today is wednesday.

been down with flu and cough AGAIN.

eeeyr. dun like to be sick. =(

had my bdae celebration with the dreamers. haha.

and i edited my pictures! (:

hahah. thanks for the surprise!!

love your loads! (:

hahah! MEI MEI RIGHT!? ^^

and the last day of school pictures.

(:

my girls with me (:

<3.

a family photo! (: hahha.

my "QING AI DE" o0ops.

sorrry baby i shld have told you earlier! (:

i seriously love this pic alot. hahaha.

well, this is guy beside me is real baby. (:

*blushed*

<3>

LOVES. (:

not forgetting this super impt person in my life.

i am so sorry gdfriend. i GRABBED the pics! (:

love her SUPER much! (:

G-O-O-D. F-R-I-E-N-D!

i know how to spell!! hahahaha.

till then,

LOVES!

this yr 2009, is my new start totally.
this is my first private entry of the year.
had broken friendships with the clique of up till 8 years.
i felt the loss in it.
but after sometime, i digested, absorbbed.
that this is friendship is no longer a keep for me at least.
they said, they have been rejected.
what about me?
ive been rejected once, and i've seen through.
they said, they had enough, me too.
no doubts.
maybe my life will be much more peaceful because i have my decisions in my hands at least.

though i know this time round, i will be much lonelier, but i believe this is my growing phase of life. i shed tears, is it worth it? i tell myself. i tot its worth the tears, but its not.
i've been through so so so much, from a failed relationship, to a new one, from a once complete friendship, to a none. from no competition , to loads of competition outside. from no comments on me, to i have to wear some bad remarks to myself. who knows it all?

maybe all these looks complicated, looks negative to you guys who have the access to my blog.
but, after so so much, i've gained alot of things.
1) understanding and almost to perfect boyf.
2) understanding and full of acceptance family i have.
3) a wonderful goodfriend to be with me all these while.
4) dreamers who is much closer with me, to cheer me up.
5) grown up me, immune to whoever will say about me and my new relationship.
haha. i have so much gains. i am contented enough alr.

i am really feeling thankful for everything i own now.
i will try to put this broken friendship aside.
this is what my sis taught me. (:

till then,
LOVES.

i've drifted.
i've cried.
i've smiled.
i've let go.
i've been happy all these while.
because in this coming birthday i am 20.
i've grown up (:

sukkasem maneeratanachaiyakul [this is my friend's name!verrry LONG. (: ]
he going back to thai.
BON VOYAGE!

till then,
LOVES.

i am happpy.

that i left with 3 more modules.

to my FINAL last day of school (:

to my birthday

to CHINESE NEW YEAR! (:

i'm contented enough alr.

what more can i ask for frm you?

till then,

LOVES!

imissyou <3

i'm sick.
terribly sick.

originally, is baby who got a fever.
but now, i am here having fever
body aches, sore throat, flu, cough and fever.
doctor say, fever will last for 5 days.
oh my god.
i think i need to rest alot alot.

thanks baby. for being with me for doctor.
i hope you will well always. (:
loves.

i will be fine.
because i know i am strong.
hehe.

till then,
LOVES!

(:

i'm smiling.

because i enjoyed my weekdays.
because my FYP2 is over, and its really haha.

HAPPINESS. (:

had alot of chats with my teammates and we were talking about the great teamwork we possessed. its awesome! (:

*presents to you, my awesome loves! (:

LOVES!

*grabbed this from gdfriendMIN's blog. hahaha.

<3

went over to open house '09.

to look for baby and andy. (:

and took some visuals with andy.

*thanks andy! ^^

*the male lead of my life. <3

for the past few weeks before my FYP2 ends, met up with CHENGCHISUEN.

(:

he is back to singapore, and i'm sorry about my MIA-ness.

haha. but managed to have a good talk with him though. (:

took visuals with him before he heads back to US and macau. (:

* SAW YOUR FACE LE MAH? (:

DUN SAY I NV PUT OKAY! (: CHENGCHISUEN.

BESTFRIEND. (:

<3

*never forget to end this entry with this love.

(: ILOVEYOU <3

the forever friendship contract.

till then,

LOVES!

if everybody understands thats not humans.
thats GOD.

no wonder, there is always a difference line between GOD and HUMANS.
this is it.

i always believe that everything has its own way out.
because this is FATE.

i believe in concerns for friends.
but, ITS NOT sometimes.
they care for you, when HAHA. when they are in their rainbow mood.
YOU KNOW?

i dont know.
because i dun wish to know anymore.
i am truly disappointed.
if i were you, i will not behave this way.

sometimes people,
MIND YOUR WORDS.
you will never know who you will hurt.
so please BE KIND.


till then,
LOVES.

FYP IS OVER!
WOOHOOOOOOOOOOO!!!!

more updates next entry. (:

till then,
LOVES!

its the fourth day of the new year. (:

i have been enjoying to my max for these four days. (:

though FYP is a killer. god.

been compiling for x10000000 times and its finally done. (:

there is no 2 jaclyn.

there is only one.

so i will be myself, and make people accept me. (:

as i've promised you. (:

i will work hard. ^^

you will, aint you?

tom is school reopen.

and fyp is happening in 2 days time.

tom is fyp submission.

and yes. i am going to be done with my fyp.

and 3 weeks to last day of school.

i am looking forward to it.

i am turning 20 like in a few weeks time.

am i ready for it?

hoho.

and last night, i casually chatted with a lil girl aged 5. (:

in bus interchange. hehe.

the innoncence in her, is what i always loved in a child.

i love the way she communicates, and i love the glowing eyes in her.

and she is beautiful (:

till then,

LOVES!

had my fyp meeting! (:

fruitful one.

and a happy one. (:

finally, at this time, FYP compilation is done.

wish me luck next week for presentation.

woohoo! (:

cam whoring today with the girls ^^

lovely teammates!



<3.

woohoo! i am contented enough with great teammates cum friends around me. (:

went shopping and bought a baggy ^^

mum's bill.hohoho.

this week i am really drained.

super tired.

i need a rest, a nice nice super long rest soon.

bless me (:

till then

LOVES!

one more day , indeed a few hours more to 2009. (:

time flies, and this year is a bad bad year.

drama life i lead this year.

seriously, this is a tiring year for me.

many gossips about me too.

but, well hah. i am just a bitch. (:

and xian hao was right.

having high expectations will lead to high disappointment.

why lead a life with so much of disappointments?

i always expect people to understand me, to know me.

but i think it has failed.

and from thn on, i no longer pin on any hopes to confide in anyone.

this is bad. i never know i am so unimportant. well, its all my doings. who can i blame. (:

in this year, i see human nature.

a person who appears to be so nice, it does not seem that they will be true to you.

i encountered one.

in this year, i changed alot.

i noticed it, dun remind me.

because from an angel to a bitch.

this is it.

i sincerely hope my 2009 will be a better one.

at least a smooth sailing one.

with all my loved ones being more healthy and be happier.

thats all. (:

oh, my fyp to be better and get graduated from RP ^^

and get a job of my passion and get on with it. (:

this is my resolution for 2009. (:

but on a happier note,

i gained another perspective of life

learning to let go.

let go of all the doubtful eyes on me, and of course comments on me.

let go of all unhappiness and move on.

i've got closer with my family, because after so much, i know family is the one who never gives up on me before. i am glad. (:
i've got closer with gdfriend, my confident (:
and with a love with me who is willing to understand and trust me.

you know who you are. (:

<3

thank you all.

HAPPY NEW YEAR TO ALL!

2009 is reaching sooon....... (:

JIAYOU!

till then,

LOVES.

you are always LOVED by me , gdfriend. (:

family gathering was awesome!
EVERYONE was present.
i seriously love them loads.
being with them, is the MOST comfortable besides being with baby. (:

overall, it was a great night because i had my best companions for the night.
thank you all (:
had nice chat with my aunties.
(: they encourage me alot.
and i had my enlightenment after the talks.
magical. ^^

"what is not meant to be, it is not."
" do not care what others say, because they are not you. (:"

this will be my enlightenment. and there are more. (:
stalk my blog all you can, because i'm not going to let you read me.

my hehe. BOYFRIEND for the DAY. (:
did you want to say something of me?
sorry. i LOVE HIM, MY BROTHER. (:
loves!


till then,
LOVES!

fyp is a killer.
i wish it will be over soon.
jiayou lo everyone!

(: whats your new year resolution?? (:

till then,
LOVES.

received mymelody for xmas which surprise me alot.. (:

which makes my xmas night a happy ending.

<3

till then,

LOVES.

up next: family's xmas gathering! (:

yay! toodles!

CHENGCHISUEN is BACK. (:
i am glad that i can see him ytd. (:
MERRY BELATED XMAS EVERYONE. (:

i'm just a bitch.

and fyp day today.
(: jiayou!

till then,
LOVES.

*i just love her to bits. ^^

at least for now, i am quiet.
(:

till then,
LOVES.

supposingly, at this time i am preparing myself to meet jass and jojo.

but then, being a good girl, i have to stay at home.

because i caught a friend, called flu bug!

the weather is just so so so bad! eeeyr. this is no good. so i decided to stay at home to rest before i got more worse which i cannot afford to. =(

sorrrrrrrrry girllllls.

pop over to woodlands to find baby to service his phone ytd! (:

we went to walkaround with andy and twinlove in causeway.

and we had a short fun time, reading children's pictures books!

hahaha. i think the two guys need to hmm... hahah. improve. (:

thn baby send me to dhoby gaut to meet up with my cousins before he headed for his home. ^^

thank you baby! (:

and went to have dinner with lovelies. (:

it was a simple and nice one!

marina keppel bay was awesome place.

but haha. i am just a lousy drinker.

and wasted hmm 18 bucks whn i only drank for like $0.50 out of it. =(

but afterall, we had a nice talk and home sweet home at 1230am! (:

and thanks baby for waiting up for me. (: LOVE!

*sometimes, its just PLAIN tired.

so PLEASE STOP for you you you and many yous!

STOP doing dirty tricks behind my back.

I HAD ENOUGH.

thanks.

till then,

LOVES!

YES. i finally met up with my gdfriendMIN. (: (: (:
though its for a short short while, i hope she is feeling much more better with my cookies for her. wee!!^^

dinner with my cousins!
woohoo!
i am looooking forward to it.
i got so many stories to tell them!
oh man! (:
my cousin is going to DRIVE!

yayness!

*i'm ready for all the tongues that wag and doubtful eyes on me.

这一路走来很不容易，我想我听累了，也看累了。

你们要怎样随你们了。就算是我错了，我变了，也无所谓了。

你们对我的冷落，对我的批评，虽然表面上没说，但我已经明白了。

我还是会出现，但我想没有人能了解，也没人会懂。我会好好的。因为我是最坏的，不是吗？

我是这样的女孩，失望了吧？我是抛弃人的女孩，抢走人的幸福的女孩不是吗？
我累了。停止吧。

till then,
LOVES.

我爱你， 我的永远的幸福的好朋友。（：

many upcoming activities for me.
super super busy.

tom will be dinner with my lovelies.
friday out with my jojo,jass and dollie.
sat was a day out with baby, i hope (:
and sunday, was my daddy's bdae. yay!

past 2 days was quality time spent with baby.
though its not twosome date, i am glad that i have baby with me. (:
monday was a day at home for fyp and dinner and heart to heart chats with mummy.
heheh.
tuesday was a day out with my bro and mum with baby and andy.
after completing some stuffs for bro, we were off to coffee club for long chats.
hmmm. i am glad that andy can see some light for himself.
smile more la, you look better if you smile. :D

the only regret is that i have no time to meet my gdfriend.
hmm. BIG sigh. =(
hopefully, today at least i gotta see her.

a happy thing: i am seeing baby later again. (:
total yayness^^


till then,
LOVES.

i'm yours. (:

<3.

*you must be strong. because you deserve to be a happy one. with me and with all around you.

always, loving you goodfriend.

till then,

LOVES.

we did not try to forget.

and the happiest relationship it can happened its that the understanding for each other.
baby mentioned about the past, and i mentioned about my past.

none of us get unhappy.

instead, we reminisce the memories we have before.

the communication in us is inexplicable.

we will be better for both of us and for both of them.

and for the rest of them around us, baby.

anyways, everything is over.

memories will not be forgotten.

i will get hold of the present now.

**i love you baby. (:

thank you.

<3

went to loook for gdfriend last evening!

hehe. i just love the PINK booth that she is tending.

because, we had so much fun for that split minutes of getting along with each other (:

hahaha. because sometimes love is there and is not pretentious.

and for this , i know it very well.

its all true feelings and pure happiness. (:

*iloveyou, dearest gdfriendMIN.

at least i know its not pretentious.

<3

"because everything happens for a reason

because everything changed for a reason.

and i definitely know it very well.

because i know the art of communication with another person in your life is challenging.

and thats why, i have to think what is the best way out.

and the answer is ME.

only myself knows what i want.

only myself, have to bear with all the consequences for my doings.

but this is the path i chose."

*twinlove, do you understand? the art of understanding and trust is important.

the art of communication is magical. just wish you can live with your choice.
<3

till then ,

LOVES.

-HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO YOU,LIMXINYI. (:-
though its one day late, but i hope you are happy always. (:

**many incomplete work to be completed.

sighh.
3 weeks of hols = packed.

i think i can faint. :(

on a happier note,

was a great day spent with the dreamers and baby.

hahah. i had a great laughing session with the rest despite i felt lousy last night.

thanks for the walk with me baby.

thanks for the heart to heart talks with me gdfriend and baby.

i felt comfort with them around.

thank you. (:

*sometimes i just wish things are not being laid like this.

i felt that i have been squeezed to the position where its not for me actually.

i will not give up though.

coz sometimes things are just really hard to come by like you.

what matters most is understanding and trust.

you did it. (:

thank you. <3<3

*this is what i said, mutual TRUST. (:

till then,

LOVES!

life should be always simple.

having a heart of gold is the most impt.

dirty little tricks will dirty our lives.

why live in such miserable life when we can be a nice person?

staying simple is happiness.

dont you agree ?

*i found mine.

woohoo!

<3<3

till then,

LOVES!

*sometimes things are not as easy as you perceived.

有些事不是你我都会了解的。



till then,
LOVES.

*350 posts



business finance UT tom.
oh my god. i think i can faint just by using excel.
calculations followed by calculations.
=(





had a happy day today.
(: (:
*one month old
<3.

till then,
LOVES!
we are his AFFAIRS.

*beyond control, you will be better.

*349 posts

bro is over at genting having his fun!
and i think i miss him alr. (:

*over at gdfriend's house for dinner is AWESOME! (:
yummydelicious dinner!
wonderful laughs and talks.
manicure! (:
thanks a million my gdfriend!
<3

i have many things that are left undone.
super stress now. :(
UTs, FYP.
its all enough for me to go crazy.
=(
rebonded my hair.
smellly now. haha.
i look like one egyptian girl.
gosh.

*brownie session was great!
sushi session was awesome!
with all my loves.
i am blessed!

*i wish you to know.
thank you.
many <3.





till then,
LOVES!

*348posts

i am going to gdfriendMIN house for dinner later!

wooohoooo!

finally, i can go visit my gdfriend's parents.

HEHE.

i believe it will be a nice one!

teehee!

holidays are coming up!!

3 WEEKS finally.

but FYP is driving me nuts and this is for sure. :(

i wish it will be over soon. (:

envy WQ that she is done with FYP.

do rmb to have lotsa fun!

and yes, DUN LAUGH AT ME OKAY!

:P

**这叫永恒不变。

till then,

LOVES.

*347posts

幸福是靠自己去争取的
不是吗？
wonderful weekends with wonderful peeps.
lovely weekdays with lovely peeps too. (:

**sometimes i just felt the amazement in things that are evolving.
you all will not be able to imagine.
and i wish this is the last amazement that can happen to me and you.
because i felt i found the right one. (:
you know what i mean , dont you?
hehe.

**goodfriend,i wish to tell you how much you've meant to me.
for this, the feelings are real.
and i love you.
<3






till then,
LOVES.

*346 posts.

when i heard about this.

i was traumatised.

and maybe its time for me to wake up.

from the great impression of you to nothing.

from what you have done behind, i knew that its all human nature.

thank you for giving me a chance to learn about the negative side of human nature.

till then,

LOVES.

**344 posts

i need more prunes and more prune juice. (:

i'm going to love it.

had FYP after seeing doctor.

and meet up with baby to walk to school together. (:

FYP is really killing me.

but i believe i will be able to conquer it.

hehehehe.

0.o

had mac after school with gdfriendMIN, baby and JT.

funnnny session!!

^^

home sweet home with baby sending me home.

and make my half of the day beautiful(:

thank you! <3

till then,

LOVES.

** i always cherish you, mydeargdfriendMIN.

a lifetime friendship contract.

i am signing it.

what about you? ^.-

343 posts.




baby is back with me once again.
HOHOHOHOHO! (:
hope his slight fever is okay now.. (:



to you*
fret not about the troubles,
because i believe you can do it de(:
anything i am just a door , a class ,a msn , a text or a phonecall away.
because i am near you everyday. ^^
if theres anything i can help within my means, i will help you.
simply <3.


its not the matter of time, its the matter of trust and belief.
i guess YOU(s) do not have all these for me no more.
&what remains constant is CHANGE.
and everything has changed ever since .....
again, i am shifting away (:



till then,
LOVES.

341 posts.

my sunday was a nice one.
out with mummyLIM and sisZHONG.
and i am glad that everything is alright between me and my sis.
(: (:

had a cut on my thumb.
and i realised my thumb is very impt.
:(



**baby is NOT here in school again.
its been 120 hours.
SIGHHH.
i miss baby:(
hope he really get well soon.



till then,
LOVES!

**341 posts.

at the later part of the lesson..
i happen to glance through calvell's bottle and mine.
notice the same water level ??!
coincidentally we drank to the SAME water level at 125ml. :P
so FUNNY!! hahahaahahah!

andd....

this is what DOREAMON loves to eat!
TONG LUO SHAO! (:
yummylicious and its bought by stella. (:


i miss baby.
i was bothered over some stuffs, and i confided into baby last night.
and really, baby i miss you.
its for sure.
i hope he is well sooon.
wo xiang ni.
<3

till then,
LOVES.

**340 posts.

a super cold weather.

today's a super blue day.

with UT later on after lessons.

without baby in class because he is down with a fever again.

=(

had breakfast with norman(:

for after so so so long.

short catch up. :P

it was a nice one. hehe.

till then,

LOVES.

**339 post.

i am alone in the library.

because as a blur queen, i forgot to bring back my jacket ytd.

and i have to retrieve it back today :(

& baby was nice and sweet enough to fetch me and go school tgt (:

and he is not feeling well =(

now, i am waiting for baby to finish his fyp.

waiting for gdfriend to come and meet me up :)

thanks gdfriend! hehehe.

and so we can study ut tgt. (:

okays. time to read through my 6ps.

toodles!

till then,

LOVE.

338 post.
these few days have been fulfilling.
study trip with goodfriendMIN, baby and andy.
was wonderful. (:(:

thankyou baby for acc me to cut my bangs.
maybe one day i will really allow you to cut my bangs.
MAYBE** =P
and thanks baby for staying up to acc me revision through the night when i am still having doubts for ut. (:
<3.


brought flower biscuits for gdfriend.
i hope all the lil colourful biscuits will make her day a colourful one ^^
& we had many lil dirty secrets shared, and laughed together.
the feeling was hehe. very nice! (:
shhhhh. its between us** ^.-








maybe its time to shift myself away.
i felt drifted more than before.
sorry that i cant be opening up myself to your.
because everything has not been the same anymore.
maybe its time, to make myself accept this is the change.
and i believe it will be better this way.
misses. (:

till then,
LOVES.

337 post.

received baby's wake up text.
baby's running a fever.
i hope he is well.

dad's lil tummy not well too.
sighhh.
i prayed that he is well too=(

and i have to postpone my cut hair session
and cancel off my visit to mydearGDFRIENDMIN.
=( i wish i can go find her during evening.
i hope.
just done with housework.
because as a sweet daughter of my parents, i decided to help them out. ^^

had a nice talk with mummy as usual.
she told me.
we must be generous in treating people.
no matter what people say, you know what you are doing and thats enough.
one ear in and out. (:
maybe after this encounter, i alr immune to all the doubtful eyes on me, and sis's comments on me.
because of her, i am having some emotional problems of loving to go home.
but afterall, she is my sis.
i need to be more and more generous. aint i?
there's once my mum cant accept, but right now, she is with me all these while.
thank you mummy and of course my daddy who is willing to be beside me.
because she knows what i am gg thru and maybe this is enough for me le.
dont you think so?
double <3

and recently i am disturbed with some stuffs.
felt angry. but what can i say?
and thats why my mum told me being generous with people is the best happiness that we humans can get.
get close for all you want. i am shifting away.
because as long as you are happy, i am okay.
afterall, i am not a nice girl. :)

till then,
LOVES.

336 post for today..

friday was a lonnnng day for me.
with tough module, tough UT and finally something that lights my mood up a lil.
walked with gdfriend+baby and many peepos.
and went for a simple dinner with lovely peepos in AMK.
and home sweet home after dinner
<3

tom is saturday.
NON- working day.
NON - dating day.
because jaclyn is going to cut her bangs once again.
and hehe.
visiting her DEARgdfriend! :D
in taka fair.
and maybe slack with her for a long time before i can say HI to joc LOW. (:
i hope? (:

sunday is the day.
baby's day.
revision's day with gdfriend!
and tonic's day! :P

anyways, i dun really wish to care.
because seriously, i had enough of it le.
i just hate to go home sometimes with you ard.

till then,
night. (:

today is the 335 post of the day.
hehhee.

meet-the-parents-session was a nice and sweet one.
thanks baby for acc me to see doc with mummyLIM. (:
thanks baby for making an effort to know my family. (:
thanks baby for the wonderful evening though i am not feeeling this well. :P

i HAD AN SUPER DUPER EARLY NIGHT YTD!
i slept at 11 last night!
giggles!
and i have a great night sleeep. yay!

had the sweetest feeling that i can ever feel this morning.
baby came down and fetch me to school (:
<3

till then,
LOVES.

i did not realised that i alr posted 333 entries.
(:
after so many things happened,
i realised happiness is really hard to get.
i hope you all will get the deserved happiness and love.

i think i must be having many latenight sleeps.
my body is givng way again.
had terrible headache today.
and went home to nap for one hr. (:
felt so much better.

tom is FYP.
i hope i am making many more achievements.
and i believe i will.
breakfast wtih gdfriendMIN.
i am looking forward ^^

some secrets to be kept.
shhhhhhhhhhhh~

till then,
LOVES!

i do not wish you to know.
because i dun wish to hurt further.
i wish you understand and really hope everything is fine. (:
thank you for all the messages of ecnouragements.

meet-the-friend session was a nice one.
short and sweet.
(:
lovemy2babies.
<3

till then,
LOVES.

it was a beautiful night that i will not forget.
thankyou for all the things you've done.
right here, right now.

till then,
LOVES.