fun fun fun !!! (:

my G-O-O-D-F-R-I-E-N-D<3

QING AI DE. (:

PAPA-BEAR!!

my SWEETEST BABY. MUACKS!

inside- AFFAIRs! hehe.

FAMILY! (:

my TWO IMPT people in my life. (: (:

BFF! (:

dearest hwee leng and GDFRIEND! (:

MINS- LOVES! (:

my dear girls (:

O0OPS. rivals (: hehe.

woohoo!!! HL AND ME ! (: loves!

shumin and me! LOVES!!!!!!!!!!!!! (:

1, 2, 3! SAY CHEEEESE! (:

3 musketeers buying BBQ FOOD! (:

my gdfriend!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! <3

back from dreamers' chalet!!
HAPPY DREAMERS' CHALET!!!WOOHOOO!

haha. received part of the photos because of the tiredness in me. =P

overall, we had a nice nice super nice chalet.

with all the drinks, with all the yummylicious food, with all the spooky ghost stories, with all the singings in kbox, with all the budget dinner [maggi mee], with all the true heartfelt words sharing session , with all the tired snorings and cold night and squeezing. most of all , its wonderful enough to have all the awesome companions together and enjoy the moments. (:

hahah. super loves to all dreamers.

and we shall see each other sooon at prom night!

woohooo! (:

till then,

LOVES!

at a later part of evening, i rotted infront of the tv.

hehehe.

and i came across this program called vanity in channels newsasia.

oh mans, its all about plastic surgery.

i watched the procedures, and i witness the pain in them.

great pains for a pretty face.

do you think its worth it?

different perceptions, different thoughts.

oh mans. this is crazy.. :P

chalet for dreamers tomorrow.

yippeee! :)

till then,

LOVES.

my sweeeeetestt baby. (:

yesterday is V-DAY.

how are your getting along with your vday?

i had an awesome one (:

thanks baby!

for the necklace and baggy. :P

i have been going through sleepless nights for so many days.

insomia.

cannot take it sometimes. :(

body-clock went heywire.

=(

i've been happy all these while.

sometimes, happiness dont always come forever for you.

simple life can always be happier with those who has a colourful life, aint it?

i always thought i am not any better than many people.

i have no talents.

i have no pretty face.

i have no tall and lanky body.

i have no feminity in me.
i have no sense of anything, perhaps humor?

i have no lovable face for people to love me.

so much "have-no(s)"

but i have a heart to listen myself.

when inferiority comes into me,

i will tell myself: jaclyn, you are called jaclyn. not anyone else.

love me or not, its up to people.

(:

maybe this is the way that i can pacify myself. (:

till then,

LOVES.

its tuesday.

its wanqin bdae.

though she cant see this entry..

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO HER. (:

going out with gdfriend later!

woohoo!

(: (: thanks gdfriend!

you know what i mean! ^^

after my short meet up with her,

i'm meeting baby after his driving.

yay! its been more than 24 hrs since i last saw my baby.

hahah. call me crazy.
call me silly. i just love to see him EVERYDAY. (:

but i know i cant.

coz i need to learn the days when he is in NS.

hehehe.

till then,

LOVES!

today is wednesday.

been down with flu and cough AGAIN.

eeeyr. dun like to be sick. =(

had my bdae celebration with the dreamers. haha.

and i edited my pictures! (:

hahah. thanks for the surprise!!

love your loads! (:

hahah! MEI MEI RIGHT!? ^^

and the last day of school pictures.

(:

my girls with me (:

<3.

a family photo! (: hahha.

my "QING AI DE" o0ops.

sorrry baby i shld have told you earlier! (:

i seriously love this pic alot. hahaha.

well, this is guy beside me is real baby. (:

*blushed*

<3>

LOVES. (:

not forgetting this super impt person in my life.

i am so sorry gdfriend. i GRABBED the pics! (:

love her SUPER much! (:

G-O-O-D. F-R-I-E-N-D!

i know how to spell!! hahahaha.

till then,

LOVES!

this yr 2009, is my new start totally.
this is my first private entry of the year.
had broken friendships with the clique of up till 8 years.
i felt the loss in it.
but after sometime, i digested, absorbbed.
that this is friendship is no longer a keep for me at least.
they said, they have been rejected.
what about me?
ive been rejected once, and i've seen through.
they said, they had enough, me too.
no doubts.
maybe my life will be much more peaceful because i have my decisions in my hands at least.

though i know this time round, i will be much lonelier, but i believe this is my growing phase of life. i shed tears, is it worth it? i tell myself. i tot its worth the tears, but its not.
i've been through so so so much, from a failed relationship, to a new one, from a once complete friendship, to a none. from no competition , to loads of competition outside. from no comments on me, to i have to wear some bad remarks to myself. who knows it all?

maybe all these looks complicated, looks negative to you guys who have the access to my blog.
but, after so so much, i've gained alot of things.
1) understanding and almost to perfect boyf.
2) understanding and full of acceptance family i have.
3) a wonderful goodfriend to be with me all these while.
4) dreamers who is much closer with me, to cheer me up.
5) grown up me, immune to whoever will say about me and my new relationship.
haha. i have so much gains. i am contented enough alr.

i am really feeling thankful for everything i own now.
i will try to put this broken friendship aside.
this is what my sis taught me. (:

till then,
LOVES.

i've drifted.
i've cried.
i've smiled.
i've let go.
i've been happy all these while.
because in this coming birthday i am 20.
i've grown up (:

sukkasem maneeratanachaiyakul [this is my friend's name!verrry LONG. (: ]
he going back to thai.
BON VOYAGE!

till then,
LOVES.

i am happpy.

that i left with 3 more modules.

to my FINAL last day of school (:

to my birthday

to CHINESE NEW YEAR! (:

i'm contented enough alr.

what more can i ask for frm you?

till then,

LOVES!

imissyou <3

i'm sick.
terribly sick.

originally, is baby who got a fever.
but now, i am here having fever
body aches, sore throat, flu, cough and fever.
doctor say, fever will last for 5 days.
oh my god.
i think i need to rest alot alot.

thanks baby. for being with me for doctor.
i hope you will well always. (:
loves.

i will be fine.
because i know i am strong.
hehe.

till then,
LOVES!

(:

i'm smiling.

because i enjoyed my weekdays.
because my FYP2 is over, and its really haha.

HAPPINESS. (:

had alot of chats with my teammates and we were talking about the great teamwork we possessed. its awesome! (:

*presents to you, my awesome loves! (:

LOVES!

*grabbed this from gdfriendMIN's blog. hahaha.

<3

went over to open house '09.

to look for baby and andy. (:

and took some visuals with andy.

*thanks andy! ^^

*the male lead of my life. <3

for the past few weeks before my FYP2 ends, met up with CHENGCHISUEN.

(:

he is back to singapore, and i'm sorry about my MIA-ness.

haha. but managed to have a good talk with him though. (:

took visuals with him before he heads back to US and macau. (:

* SAW YOUR FACE LE MAH? (:

DUN SAY I NV PUT OKAY! (: CHENGCHISUEN.

BESTFRIEND. (:

<3

*never forget to end this entry with this love.

(: ILOVEYOU <3

the forever friendship contract.

till then,

LOVES!

if everybody understands thats not humans.
thats GOD.

no wonder, there is always a difference line between GOD and HUMANS.
this is it.

i always believe that everything has its own way out.
because this is FATE.

i believe in concerns for friends.
but, ITS NOT sometimes.
they care for you, when HAHA. when they are in their rainbow mood.
YOU KNOW?

i dont know.
because i dun wish to know anymore.
i am truly disappointed.
if i were you, i will not behave this way.

sometimes people,
MIND YOUR WORDS.
you will never know who you will hurt.
so please BE KIND.


till then,
LOVES.

FYP IS OVER!
WOOHOOOOOOOOOOO!!!!

more updates next entry. (:

till then,
LOVES!

its the fourth day of the new year. (:

i have been enjoying to my max for these four days. (:

though FYP is a killer. god.

been compiling for x10000000 times and its finally done. (:

there is no 2 jaclyn.

there is only one.

so i will be myself, and make people accept me. (:

as i've promised you. (:

i will work hard. ^^

you will, aint you?

tom is school reopen.

and fyp is happening in 2 days time.

tom is fyp submission.

and yes. i am going to be done with my fyp.

and 3 weeks to last day of school.

i am looking forward to it.

i am turning 20 like in a few weeks time.

am i ready for it?

hoho.

and last night, i casually chatted with a lil girl aged 5. (:

in bus interchange. hehe.

the innoncence in her, is what i always loved in a child.

i love the way she communicates, and i love the glowing eyes in her.

and she is beautiful (:

till then,

LOVES!

had my fyp meeting! (:

fruitful one.

and a happy one. (:

finally, at this time, FYP compilation is done.

wish me luck next week for presentation.

woohoo! (:

cam whoring today with the girls ^^

lovely teammates!



<3.

woohoo! i am contented enough with great teammates cum friends around me. (:

went shopping and bought a baggy ^^

mum's bill.hohoho.

this week i am really drained.

super tired.

i need a rest, a nice nice super long rest soon.

bless me (:

till then

LOVES!

one more day , indeed a few hours more to 2009. (:

time flies, and this year is a bad bad year.

drama life i lead this year.

seriously, this is a tiring year for me.

many gossips about me too.

but, well hah. i am just a bitch. (:

and xian hao was right.

having high expectations will lead to high disappointment.

why lead a life with so much of disappointments?

i always expect people to understand me, to know me.

but i think it has failed.

and from thn on, i no longer pin on any hopes to confide in anyone.

this is bad. i never know i am so unimportant. well, its all my doings. who can i blame. (:

in this year, i see human nature.

a person who appears to be so nice, it does not seem that they will be true to you.

i encountered one.

in this year, i changed alot.

i noticed it, dun remind me.

because from an angel to a bitch.

this is it.

i sincerely hope my 2009 will be a better one.

at least a smooth sailing one.

with all my loved ones being more healthy and be happier.

thats all. (:

oh, my fyp to be better and get graduated from RP ^^

and get a job of my passion and get on with it. (:

this is my resolution for 2009. (:

but on a happier note,

i gained another perspective of life

learning to let go.

let go of all the doubtful eyes on me, and of course comments on me.

let go of all unhappiness and move on.

i've got closer with my family, because after so much, i know family is the one who never gives up on me before. i am glad. (:
i've got closer with gdfriend, my confident (:
and with a love with me who is willing to understand and trust me.

you know who you are. (:

<3

thank you all.

HAPPY NEW YEAR TO ALL!

2009 is reaching sooon....... (:

JIAYOU!

till then,

LOVES.

you are always LOVED by me , gdfriend. (:

family gathering was awesome!
EVERYONE was present.
i seriously love them loads.
being with them, is the MOST comfortable besides being with baby. (:

overall, it was a great night because i had my best companions for the night.
thank you all (:
had nice chat with my aunties.
(: they encourage me alot.
and i had my enlightenment after the talks.
magical. ^^

"what is not meant to be, it is not."
" do not care what others say, because they are not you. (:"

this will be my enlightenment. and there are more. (:
stalk my blog all you can, because i'm not going to let you read me.

my hehe. BOYFRIEND for the DAY. (:
did you want to say something of me?
sorry. i LOVE HIM, MY BROTHER. (:
loves!


till then,
LOVES!

fyp is a killer.
i wish it will be over soon.
jiayou lo everyone!

(: whats your new year resolution?? (:

till then,
LOVES.

received mymelody for xmas which surprise me alot.. (:

which makes my xmas night a happy ending.

<3

till then,

LOVES.

up next: family's xmas gathering! (:

yay! toodles!

CHENGCHISUEN is BACK. (:
i am glad that i can see him ytd. (:
MERRY BELATED XMAS EVERYONE. (:

i'm just a bitch.

and fyp day today.
(: jiayou!

till then,
LOVES.

*i just love her to bits. ^^

at least for now, i am quiet.
(:

till then,
LOVES.

supposingly, at this time i am preparing myself to meet jass and jojo.

but then, being a good girl, i have to stay at home.

because i caught a friend, called flu bug!

the weather is just so so so bad! eeeyr. this is no good. so i decided to stay at home to rest before i got more worse which i cannot afford to. =(

sorrrrrrrrry girllllls.

pop over to woodlands to find baby to service his phone ytd! (:

we went to walkaround with andy and twinlove in causeway.

and we had a short fun time, reading children's pictures books!

hahaha. i think the two guys need to hmm... hahah. improve. (:

thn baby send me to dhoby gaut to meet up with my cousins before he headed for his home. ^^

thank you baby! (:

and went to have dinner with lovelies. (:

it was a simple and nice one!

marina keppel bay was awesome place.

but haha. i am just a lousy drinker.

and wasted hmm 18 bucks whn i only drank for like $0.50 out of it. =(

but afterall, we had a nice talk and home sweet home at 1230am! (:

and thanks baby for waiting up for me. (: LOVE!

*sometimes, its just PLAIN tired.

so PLEASE STOP for you you you and many yous!

STOP doing dirty tricks behind my back.

I HAD ENOUGH.

thanks.

till then,

LOVES!

YES. i finally met up with my gdfriendMIN. (: (: (:
though its for a short short while, i hope she is feeling much more better with my cookies for her. wee!!^^

dinner with my cousins!
woohoo!
i am looooking forward to it.
i got so many stories to tell them!
oh man! (:
my cousin is going to DRIVE!

yayness!

*i'm ready for all the tongues that wag and doubtful eyes on me.

这一路走来很不容易，我想我听累了，也看累了。

你们要怎样随你们了。就算是我错了，我变了，也无所谓了。

你们对我的冷落，对我的批评，虽然表面上没说，但我已经明白了。

我还是会出现，但我想没有人能了解，也没人会懂。我会好好的。因为我是最坏的，不是吗？

我是这样的女孩，失望了吧？我是抛弃人的女孩，抢走人的幸福的女孩不是吗？
我累了。停止吧。

till then,
LOVES.

我爱你， 我的永远的幸福的好朋友。（：

many upcoming activities for me.
super super busy.

tom will be dinner with my lovelies.
friday out with my jojo,jass and dollie.
sat was a day out with baby, i hope (:
and sunday, was my daddy's bdae. yay!

past 2 days was quality time spent with baby.
though its not twosome date, i am glad that i have baby with me. (:
monday was a day at home for fyp and dinner and heart to heart chats with mummy.
heheh.
tuesday was a day out with my bro and mum with baby and andy.
after completing some stuffs for bro, we were off to coffee club for long chats.
hmmm. i am glad that andy can see some light for himself.
smile more la, you look better if you smile. :D

the only regret is that i have no time to meet my gdfriend.
hmm. BIG sigh. =(
hopefully, today at least i gotta see her.

a happy thing: i am seeing baby later again. (:
total yayness^^


till then,
LOVES.

i'm yours. (:

<3.

*you must be strong. because you deserve to be a happy one. with me and with all around you.

always, loving you goodfriend.

till then,

LOVES.

we did not try to forget.

and the happiest relationship it can happened its that the understanding for each other.
baby mentioned about the past, and i mentioned about my past.

none of us get unhappy.

instead, we reminisce the memories we have before.

the communication in us is inexplicable.

we will be better for both of us and for both of them.

and for the rest of them around us, baby.

anyways, everything is over.

memories will not be forgotten.

i will get hold of the present now.

**i love you baby. (:

thank you.

<3

went to loook for gdfriend last evening!

hehe. i just love the PINK booth that she is tending.

because, we had so much fun for that split minutes of getting along with each other (:

hahaha. because sometimes love is there and is not pretentious.

and for this , i know it very well.

its all true feelings and pure happiness. (:

*iloveyou, dearest gdfriendMIN.

at least i know its not pretentious.

<3

"because everything happens for a reason

because everything changed for a reason.

and i definitely know it very well.

because i know the art of communication with another person in your life is challenging.

and thats why, i have to think what is the best way out.

and the answer is ME.

only myself knows what i want.

only myself, have to bear with all the consequences for my doings.

but this is the path i chose."

*twinlove, do you understand? the art of understanding and trust is important.

the art of communication is magical. just wish you can live with your choice.
<3

till then ,

LOVES.

-HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO YOU,LIMXINYI. (:-
though its one day late, but i hope you are happy always. (:

**many incomplete work to be completed.

sighh.
3 weeks of hols = packed.

i think i can faint. :(

on a happier note,

was a great day spent with the dreamers and baby.

hahah. i had a great laughing session with the rest despite i felt lousy last night.

thanks for the walk with me baby.

thanks for the heart to heart talks with me gdfriend and baby.

i felt comfort with them around.

thank you. (:

*sometimes i just wish things are not being laid like this.

i felt that i have been squeezed to the position where its not for me actually.

i will not give up though.

coz sometimes things are just really hard to come by like you.

what matters most is understanding and trust.

you did it. (:

thank you. <3<3

*this is what i said, mutual TRUST. (:

till then,

LOVES!

life should be always simple.

having a heart of gold is the most impt.

dirty little tricks will dirty our lives.

why live in such miserable life when we can be a nice person?

staying simple is happiness.

dont you agree ?

*i found mine.

woohoo!

<3<3

till then,

LOVES!

*sometimes things are not as easy as you perceived.

有些事不是你我都会了解的。



till then,
LOVES.

*350 posts



business finance UT tom.
oh my god. i think i can faint just by using excel.
calculations followed by calculations.
=(





had a happy day today.
(: (:
*one month old
<3.

till then,
LOVES!
we are his AFFAIRS.

*beyond control, you will be better.