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lovely diary...

well, things dont go well for me at home today.
i finally had my off day and rest at home.
but housework seems to be haunting me..
well, today i jut did a lil.
coz daddy has his off day..
so he helped me out. (:

thn i spent my whole afternoon watching you tube videos.
th my mum start screaming at me to help out with steamboat tonight.
after dinner, we fell out with each other.
i am not supposed to use the nets card.
but its such a hassle if i am going to keep on asking for my card when my salary is here.
i said i have grown up.
she started her screaming thn.
i kept quiet.
she say she thought the card is with her all the time.
never she think that i will "hide" the card from her.
well, it feels good to control my own finance.
but, i did not have this intention to "hide" from her.
i always thought she allows me to keep it.
thats it, well, my fault isnt it?
she said when can she trust me? my goodness.
the sentence is heavy.
i hold my tears.

thn its okay.
i tried to discuss the matter of me opening a new account, to keep all my salaries and allowance.
she ignored me.
fine.

thn, i kept all the folded clothes in my room.
i scolded my sis of she messing up my cupboard.
but i was wrong about her.
so its my fault.
i kept quiet...
she continue saying that i keep clothes also no use,coz its like never keep like that.
still messy..
i kept quiet again..
i help her re arrange all her clothes, she said dun put her clothes with mine.
saying i always take her things.
i cried in the darkness.
i cant hold it anymore, i went to the toilet to cry my hearts out. (:
i never know i held back so much tears. (:

i cant sleep.
so here i am to divert my attention to my lappie.
you tubing again. :P

well, i have nothing to sad about, i told myself.
jiust some plain quarrels and nasty words.
i can take it (:

so what if i cried till my eyes are puffy, my nose blocked like nobody's business...
a day in life is precious..
24 hrs i can live very happily.
forget and go ahead.
this is life, isnt it?
(:

chill jac!
byeee!
MUACKS.

ps: i miss MYdear.