thats when i love you ♥

for so so long, i cried last night.
been feeling down ever since dunno how many days ago.
but i had a chat with gdfriend, she assured me and i got better.
but last night, everything seems overwhelming.
i couldnt take it, i broke down.
silly right.
i always tell babyboy, sometimes making comparisons will kill someone.
and i told him if i am to make any comparison, i will only compare myself with rona.
in this blog, everyone is here so close with me.
i am not afraid to rant it all here.
i know i am different.
for once i tot i was.
but it seems i been living under her shadow.
people will mistook me as her.
but i know it was not on purpose.
i find it funny and cute too. so i did not take it to heart, for this is real. (:

she has so much talents.
she is prettier.
she gets along very well with baby's parents.
and most of all, she did not make babyboy's sick.

i did.
my dad scolded me.
his mummy scolded him.
afterall, everything is back to me.
i may not be as lovable as rona.
i may not be as talented as her.
i may not be the one who is making babyboy better.
but i really love this babyboy of mine.

it aches my heart whenever i see rona's stuffs for his sis.
it aches my heart to see babyboy keep falling sick.
i become more and more helpless.
though babyboy comforted me with all the i am the best girl words.
it got me better.
but still i will wonder.
plain jane i am,
i dun wish to bother.
who i am.

gonna talk a walk outside.
visit the temple.
i will feeel much better. (:
trust me.
i will be okay.

i'm sorry babyboy.
i know i am silly.
i will be okay alright.
pray you will be okay! (:
loveyou!

thankyou gdfriend.
for always being there to listen me out.
loves!

till then,
LOVES.