upset ):

these 2 weeks of break, i think alot.
no work, more thoughts, more reflections.

after my entry of friendship,
xinyi & wanqin texted me.
i felt sweetest, happiness.
thanks for all the texts & meet you both girls up this dec 2. (:

been alone , and got scolded at home.
if i say there's biasness in a family, there's bound to be.
but, everyone will tell me, this is not the first time isn it?
let it be, let it be.
i dont know. perhaps, i have tried not hard enough.
sometimes, i am tired.
totally drained, but still nothing changes.
anyways, yes, let it be , let it be.
still, family is the best to hide away all ugly people in earth. (:
thats home.

baby's been away for many days.
wanqin told me she wanted honghui to be in OCS.
but i beg to differ.
coz i cant be like her, independent.
i need him.
perhaps, you say i am too sticky.
so be it.

because:

whenever i am unhappy, he is always the one sitting beside me, telling me, baby, everything will be okay. (:

whenever i had nightmares, he will hugg me, stroking my head and said, baby i am here. no more crying okay. nothing is happening.♥ (:

whenever i ended my horrible work, he will be waiting for me patiently to fetch me from work, and thats whn i tot there's no one i can find like him. ♥

whenever i cry, he will help me wipe away my tears, hold my hands and said, i love you baby. ♥

whenever i did stupid stuffs, nonsensical stuffs, he will always laugh at me. saying that i am too cute for him to let go ♥.

whenever i asked him, aint i am stupid? he said, no, because this is you, i love you because you are jaclyn, my baby.♥ (:

he will make it a point to call me up everynight, to tell me how much he misses me, and wishes me a goodnight sleep. ♥ (:

he will make it a point to call me even if he is army, been busy with all the stuffs. and asked me to be careful, asked me to go out with friends being afraid i will bored to death, asking me to eat full and rmb medications.
& many more....

its very hard for me not to rely on him, isnt it?.
i am a boyf's girl.
i love him. i nv felt so sweet and touched before. thank you (:
thats why friends will leave me.

but, fortunately, there are some lovely friends who will understand and be by my side ALWAYS.
thank you ♥ for always willing to stay. (:
hearts.

-gdfriendMIN
-monster
-xinmiao
-jessie
-affair
-xinyi
-chisuen
-wanqin

the thank-you ceremony will not be ending.
because i appreciate them.
♥

till then ,
LOVES.

ps: i miss baby. 4 more days to go!