drained.

these few days at work hasnt been smooth sailing.
everything under the sun has been commented on.
just that i had to take up all of it and absorbed it by hook, by crook.

got no choice to stay on at work.
mummy objected the idea of me being a pre school teacher.
daddy said this company is good enough.
sister said go ahead to do what i want.
baby said he wish to see me happy, so he will be there for me always (:
goodfriend said go ahead , and do what i like. (:
what about me?
can i really go ahead with my plan?

i wish to test how far i can go.
how much i can take up all the unhappiness and how i look at things at different perspective.
i wish i can endure and go on.
perhaps i can isnt it?

not happy. totally not.
what can jaccy do?
but at least, jaccy has a sweetest babyboy to fetch me from work after his everyday.
jaccy has a home to head to.
jaccy has a nice goodfriend, to talk to.
maybe all these are enough to cover my unhappiness.

i look at babyboy's friends.
they have been very long.
since secondary.
full of envy.
because they are a group of friends who understands.
whenever they got together after a long time as a full group, no one complains.
no one grumbles.
everyone understands.
i'm really amazed.

(:

till then,
LOVES.