affair i invited you alr! (:

sorrry. i tot you nv read blogs. so i nv invite you in! (:

went bugis the whole day.

visited the temple, and i felt really better. (:

thn walked around in bugis v, and nothing to see also. haha!

thn headed to bugis junction, and bought a bear bear necklace for 10 bucks.

must really curb my spending, coz ytd i bought titus watch at big sale for 149 bucks:(
feel my money draining out. oh no! its been very long since i spent. haha!

2 days i have not been seeing babyboy.

i hope he is better alr. (:

loves.

met up with mummy today for lunch.

yummy, and i ate quite alot.

because i am super hungry! (:
thn shopped around, mummy asked me to buy one more pair of leggins so i went topshop.

thn i went cam whoring in the fitting room! (:

MOST SATISFYING PHOTOS! (:

HAHAHAH. i just love the lighting inside.

woohoo!!

time for kouufu dinner :(

till then,

LOVES.

for so so long, i cried last night.
been feeling down ever since dunno how many days ago.
but i had a chat with gdfriend, she assured me and i got better.
but last night, everything seems overwhelming.
i couldnt take it, i broke down.
silly right.
i always tell babyboy, sometimes making comparisons will kill someone.
and i told him if i am to make any comparison, i will only compare myself with rona.
in this blog, everyone is here so close with me.
i am not afraid to rant it all here.
i know i am different.
for once i tot i was.
but it seems i been living under her shadow.
people will mistook me as her.
but i know it was not on purpose.
i find it funny and cute too. so i did not take it to heart, for this is real. (:

she has so much talents.
she is prettier.
she gets along very well with baby's parents.
and most of all, she did not make babyboy's sick.

i did.
my dad scolded me.
his mummy scolded him.
afterall, everything is back to me.
i may not be as lovable as rona.
i may not be as talented as her.
i may not be the one who is making babyboy better.
but i really love this babyboy of mine.

it aches my heart whenever i see rona's stuffs for his sis.
it aches my heart to see babyboy keep falling sick.
i become more and more helpless.
though babyboy comforted me with all the i am the best girl words.
it got me better.
but still i will wonder.
plain jane i am,
i dun wish to bother.
who i am.

gonna talk a walk outside.
visit the temple.
i will feeel much better. (:
trust me.
i will be okay.

i'm sorry babyboy.
i know i am silly.
i will be okay alright.
pray you will be okay! (:
loveyou!

thankyou gdfriend.
for always being there to listen me out.
loves!

till then,
LOVES.

finally, i managed to get back my archives babyboy.
(: the past of me, and the present of me, seems to change alot alot.
reading my past entries, the things i wrote is so so much different, i realised how much i have gained and in the same time how much i have lost. (:

blogging has been a part of my everyday life.
but now, i am writing all my true feelings down compared to my past entries.
this is my sense of achievement, isn't it? hahah.

i nv got to see my babyboy today.
i hope he is recovering well, and hope that i can see him tomorrow. (:
love you!! ^^

someone(s) popped up a qns before..
do you think jaclyn and edison will last?
though i am not the one answering this question,
but i hope we can last.
a relationship is not a third party can judge de alright.
i can just say , i will work harder to cherish this man of my life.
i promise i will do a better job than rona, i believe. (:

till then,
LOVES.

went out with gdfriendMIN this afternoon!

fun filled chats and hangouts in MOS burger was great&awesome (:

shopped around in IMM and went to my favourite place in the past: DAISO. (:

hehehe. many many things to shop and bought ribbons for my card making (:

of course, cam-whoring with gdfriend is SUPERRRRB! (:

my card for my mummy.

NICE RIGHT!?

because i am a lovely daughter (:

babyboy's down with fever.

i am worried.

i am sad.

i am helpless.

tell me what can i do to shoo away the sickness for babyboy?

sighhhhhh..

if i am really a genie, i wish to magic away his sickness FOREVER.

:(

till then,

LOVES.

hehehe. was out for lunch after my interview with babyboy and mummy(:
nice feeeling, and it was great afterall. ^^
interview was smooth and i hope i can this job, and get paid everymonth! wooohooo! (:
watched marley&me , it was nice, 5 stars! (: i cried like.. hahah. its a sweeet and touching story about doggy and humans. (:

before movie, we went to play with the machine filled with toys.
okays, spent 11 bucks on the cute cute pinkyyy melody! (: sweeet aint it? (:
its babyboy and me who bring it to this world filled with love by both of us!
hehehe. lovelove!
**daddy&mummy loves you. (:

thn went home to have dinner before babyboy headed for home.
poor baby, his face is in pain after all the squeezing of his pimples during his facial.
i hope he is getting alot better okay. (:
<3.

meeting gdfriendMIN tomorrow!
hehee. LOVELOVELOVE!
i hope she will be happy and all.
because i do not want to see her unhappy sometimes because she JUST MISS ME SO SO MUCH. horh!?
LOVES. (:

till then,
LOVES.

PROM-NIGHT marks a beautiful end of our RP life.
soulmates/bestfriends/loves/friends we have met in our lives in RP.
last night was the day where everyone was dressed smartly/beautifully got together in the posh marriot hotel for a wonderful nightand photo takings. (:

though the food there was so-so, but indeed it was an enjoyable night that jaccy ever had(:
& totally cannot imagine the things that happened last night...
1: jaccy wore heels last evening, and was SLIGHTLY taller than her previous normal days.
2: jaccy was dressed in her sister's company dress and the designed clutch. [alldressedup]
3: jaccy had great times taking photos with so so many friends that she had met in RP in the 3 years of education life (:
4: DREAMERS attendance was FULL. i love this full feeling & it was awesome. (:
5: jaccy saw many of her beloved friends, all so beautiful and smartly dressed ^^
6: jaccy kissed GDFRIENDMIN on her lips for the FIRST time of her life as she believe that kissing girls on lips is abit erm.. disgusting. but now, for TEO-GDFRIENDMIN, i went all out. (:
7: jaccy heard screamings of GDFRIENDMIN " JACLYN KISSED ME! "
8: jaccy had her boyfriendTAN;herbabyboy, with her all the time , and was the first time attending PROMnight with her love. <3
9: jaccy had her FIRST TIME dancing/SHAKING indeed on the dance floor. abit of *embarrassed* teehee.
10: jaccy had her first late night out with friends, TOP1 singing to her hearts out with her friends, and had an enjoyable night spent. (:
11: jaccy's affairVIN got up to the stage & played games! woohoo! BRAVO! (:
12: jaccy took photos with babyboy's sweet friends: xinmiao and xinmin. (:
13: jaccy had her babyboy staying over at her house for the first time of her life. (:
14: && JACCY AND HER BABYBOY WON THE FIRST PRIZE OF THE LUCKY DRAW; 2 DAYS 1 NIGHT STAY in deluxe room in MARRIOT HOTEL. and they are happppppy (: (: (: so so many first time i have! (: & indeed it was a really remarkable day for JACCY ZHONG. (: some visuals to share in my phone. the rest i need to WAIT AND GRAB FROM ALL OF THEM! WOOHOO! (:




* jaccy is a HAPPY girl (:
iloveyou.

till then,
LOVES!

today is thursday.

had a terrible tummy upset and woke up super earlylike 845am.

when i slept at 1 last night. :(

been browsing facebook.

read about the comments for goodfriend.

she cried?

why cry?

hughugs okay! (:

I LOVE YOU.

anything, just TEXT ME. (:

today is prom night day.

i believe all will be excited about today.

hope that everyone enjoys their beautiful moment in the place today.

LOVES.

more updates after prom!

till then,

LOVES!

do not worry, because i will be always here for you, my dearest goodfriend. (:

preeeettty rainbow right! hahah.
witness this with babyboy just now in cineleisure.
hehe. JT says we will have a good yr ahead!
i wish too alright! (:
my FIRST time seeing the pretty rainbows!
lovelove!
JT& goodfriend text me abt this rainbow, and totally immersed ourselves in happiness with 7 colours! (:

toured around town and bugis today with my babyboy.
never fail to run around the singapore till our legs begin to sore. :(
verrry pain, till we settle ourselves in koufu @ cineleisure. hahah!
chit chatted until we are almost recover and head down to cuppage plaza for the wanton noodles! (:
home sweet home at before 9 because babyboy is real tired :(
thank you babyboy for your "never fail to make me happy".
everything seems so different with you around.
though many things has changed, and i believe it will be better, yes?
love you babyboy!

tomorrow is a big day for all the SIT students.
PROM NIGHT. (:
it will be a happening day for all of us.
its a pity cynthia is not joining. :(
but i hope everything will be a fun fun fun one!
see you all there my DREAMERS!
(: (: (:

till then,
LOVES!

G-O-O-D-F-R-I-E-N-D.
<3

dayout(:

hehehe. finally i got a blogskin which makes much more conveniency to readers. (:

i changed quite alot, this is the best one. (:

today i had a great great day! (:

babyboy came over to find me early in the morning.

saying that he hardly got a whole day free to acc me due to his hectic driving lessons. :(

& we managed to stalk someone's blog and add it to my "favourites" :P

teeheee.

we headed out to bugis.

original plan:pray and cut my bangs.

due to the pouring rain, i could not make it to the temple.

plan B: suprise gdfriend and the rest in V8 cafe !! hahahaha!

this plan was a succcess!! (:

had a happy lunch with the rest of the dreamers.

heheh. (:

thn we separated and head to far east.

to cut my bangs and shopped around before my babyboy heading home early and meet his friends. (:

and we entered into the hello kitty shop!

babyboy bought me a melody cute cute pen!!

cute right?! when closed, its only a head, but whn you begin to use it to write, the lil pinky body will pop out! hahaha! LOVELOVE! (:

thankyou babyboy!

bought a jacket with flower prints.

nicenice! (:

thn walked around and headed for home.

its been long since i am home for dinner.

& i always love the homely feeling. (:

hehe. lovely! (:

till then,

LOVES!

been looking at the past photos, and i realised how much i've changed and perhaps AGED. (:

nevertheless, i am happy that i've changed to a slimer me. whahaha.

RESULTS IS OUT. i am officially OUT from RP.
though my results dropped quite abit, but i managed to stay at 3.05 range.
yahs, my results is 3.05
all Bs and one C+ for my FYP2.
i am glad that i passed all my modules.
its time to start thinking where i should start my new phase of life.



heheh.going to polyclinic later on.
oh man. GOD BLESS ME. :(
hope i am able to meet my baby later on (:
hehehe.

PROM is a few days away! woohoo! i am going to enjoy and share everyone's prettiest moment at marriot hotel on thursday. hehe.
AND ALL DREAMERS SHALL ENJOY. (:
there are so many things not yet settled.
its time to sort things out. =)





thank you very much for the being there for me. if life without you, means my life is without colours. my goodfriend, my soulmate and my love. (:
thank you goodfriend. <3

till then,
LOVES!

hehhe. i am back! wooohoo!

after the chalet, i was drop dead and recover from my insomia right away. (:

had dinner over at baby's house and ya. something unhappy happened. but its cleared within that night. i AM EASIER to please horh baby? hhaha.

thn had another unhappiness friday night.

hmm. i wish all these unhappiness will stop and more happiness to be alright?

but i'm glad that baby for your understanding and the trust you put in (:

always in love with you... <3.>

saturday was the day out with baby's family.

had a great day out with them. (:

own a black lil heels with ribbons[my favourite] and become a lil happy girl ^^

haha!
today is the day where i am out with my sweetest baby. (:

vivo and our simple ikea trip with many sauce hotdog buns and the sweetest caramel DISCOUNTED ice cream was a pleasure. (:

i love being with this silly biggy baby.

loveeeee!!!

till then,

LOVES!

LOVE THIS GIRLL TOOOO!! (:

fun fun fun !!! (:

my G-O-O-D-F-R-I-E-N-D<3

QING AI DE. (:

PAPA-BEAR!!

my SWEETEST BABY. MUACKS!

inside- AFFAIRs! hehe.

FAMILY! (:

my TWO IMPT people in my life. (: (:

BFF! (:

dearest hwee leng and GDFRIEND! (:

MINS- LOVES! (:

my dear girls (:

O0OPS. rivals (: hehe.

woohoo!!! HL AND ME ! (: loves!

shumin and me! LOVES!!!!!!!!!!!!! (:

1, 2, 3! SAY CHEEEESE! (:

3 musketeers buying BBQ FOOD! (:

my gdfriend!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! <3

back from dreamers' chalet!!
HAPPY DREAMERS' CHALET!!!WOOHOOO!

haha. received part of the photos because of the tiredness in me. =P

overall, we had a nice nice super nice chalet.

with all the drinks, with all the yummylicious food, with all the spooky ghost stories, with all the singings in kbox, with all the budget dinner [maggi mee], with all the true heartfelt words sharing session , with all the tired snorings and cold night and squeezing. most of all , its wonderful enough to have all the awesome companions together and enjoy the moments. (:

hahah. super loves to all dreamers.

and we shall see each other sooon at prom night!

woohooo! (:

till then,

LOVES!

at a later part of evening, i rotted infront of the tv.

hehehe.

and i came across this program called vanity in channels newsasia.

oh mans, its all about plastic surgery.

i watched the procedures, and i witness the pain in them.

great pains for a pretty face.

do you think its worth it?

different perceptions, different thoughts.

oh mans. this is crazy.. :P

chalet for dreamers tomorrow.

yippeee! :)

till then,

LOVES.

my sweeeeetestt baby. (:

yesterday is V-DAY.

how are your getting along with your vday?

i had an awesome one (:

thanks baby!

for the necklace and baggy. :P

i have been going through sleepless nights for so many days.

insomia.

cannot take it sometimes. :(

body-clock went heywire.

=(

i've been happy all these while.

sometimes, happiness dont always come forever for you.

simple life can always be happier with those who has a colourful life, aint it?

i always thought i am not any better than many people.

i have no talents.

i have no pretty face.

i have no tall and lanky body.

i have no feminity in me.
i have no sense of anything, perhaps humor?

i have no lovable face for people to love me.

so much "have-no(s)"

but i have a heart to listen myself.

when inferiority comes into me,

i will tell myself: jaclyn, you are called jaclyn. not anyone else.

love me or not, its up to people.

(:

maybe this is the way that i can pacify myself. (:

till then,

LOVES.

its tuesday.

its wanqin bdae.

though she cant see this entry..

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO HER. (:

going out with gdfriend later!

woohoo!

(: (: thanks gdfriend!

you know what i mean! ^^

after my short meet up with her,

i'm meeting baby after his driving.

yay! its been more than 24 hrs since i last saw my baby.

hahah. call me crazy.
call me silly. i just love to see him EVERYDAY. (:

but i know i cant.

coz i need to learn the days when he is in NS.

hehehe.

till then,

LOVES!

today is wednesday.

been down with flu and cough AGAIN.

eeeyr. dun like to be sick. =(

had my bdae celebration with the dreamers. haha.

and i edited my pictures! (:

hahah. thanks for the surprise!!

love your loads! (:

hahah! MEI MEI RIGHT!? ^^

and the last day of school pictures.

(:

my girls with me (:

<3.

a family photo! (: hahha.

my "QING AI DE" o0ops.

sorrry baby i shld have told you earlier! (:

i seriously love this pic alot. hahaha.

well, this is guy beside me is real baby. (:

*blushed*

<3>

LOVES. (:

not forgetting this super impt person in my life.

i am so sorry gdfriend. i GRABBED the pics! (:

love her SUPER much! (:

G-O-O-D. F-R-I-E-N-D!

i know how to spell!! hahahaha.

till then,

LOVES!

this yr 2009, is my new start totally.
this is my first private entry of the year.
had broken friendships with the clique of up till 8 years.
i felt the loss in it.
but after sometime, i digested, absorbbed.
that this is friendship is no longer a keep for me at least.
they said, they have been rejected.
what about me?
ive been rejected once, and i've seen through.
they said, they had enough, me too.
no doubts.
maybe my life will be much more peaceful because i have my decisions in my hands at least.

though i know this time round, i will be much lonelier, but i believe this is my growing phase of life. i shed tears, is it worth it? i tell myself. i tot its worth the tears, but its not.
i've been through so so so much, from a failed relationship, to a new one, from a once complete friendship, to a none. from no competition , to loads of competition outside. from no comments on me, to i have to wear some bad remarks to myself. who knows it all?

maybe all these looks complicated, looks negative to you guys who have the access to my blog.
but, after so so much, i've gained alot of things.
1) understanding and almost to perfect boyf.
2) understanding and full of acceptance family i have.
3) a wonderful goodfriend to be with me all these while.
4) dreamers who is much closer with me, to cheer me up.
5) grown up me, immune to whoever will say about me and my new relationship.
haha. i have so much gains. i am contented enough alr.

i am really feeling thankful for everything i own now.
i will try to put this broken friendship aside.
this is what my sis taught me. (:

till then,
LOVES.

i've drifted.
i've cried.
i've smiled.
i've let go.
i've been happy all these while.
because in this coming birthday i am 20.
i've grown up (:

sukkasem maneeratanachaiyakul [this is my friend's name!verrry LONG. (: ]
he going back to thai.
BON VOYAGE!

till then,
LOVES.

i am happpy.

that i left with 3 more modules.

to my FINAL last day of school (:

to my birthday

to CHINESE NEW YEAR! (:

i'm contented enough alr.

what more can i ask for frm you?

till then,

LOVES!

imissyou <3

i'm sick.
terribly sick.

originally, is baby who got a fever.
but now, i am here having fever
body aches, sore throat, flu, cough and fever.
doctor say, fever will last for 5 days.
oh my god.
i think i need to rest alot alot.

thanks baby. for being with me for doctor.
i hope you will well always. (:
loves.

i will be fine.
because i know i am strong.
hehe.

till then,
LOVES!