this yr 2009, is my new start totally.
this is my first private entry of the year.
had broken friendships with the clique of up till 8 years.
i felt the loss in it.
but after sometime, i digested, absorbbed.
that this is friendship is no longer a keep for me at least.
they said, they have been rejected.
what about me?
ive been rejected once, and i've seen through.
they said, they had enough, me too.
no doubts.
maybe my life will be much more peaceful because i have my decisions in my hands at least.
though i know this time round, i will be much lonelier, but i believe this is my growing phase of life. i shed tears, is it worth it? i tell myself. i tot its worth the tears, but its not.
i've been through so so so much, from a failed relationship, to a new one, from a once complete friendship, to a none. from no competition , to loads of competition outside. from no comments on me, to i have to wear some bad remarks to myself. who knows it all?
maybe all these looks complicated, looks negative to you guys who have the access to my blog.
but, after so so much, i've gained alot of things.
1) understanding and almost to perfect boyf.
2) understanding and full of acceptance family i have.
3) a wonderful goodfriend to be with me all these while.
4) dreamers who is much closer with me, to cheer me up.
5) grown up me, immune to whoever will say about me and my new relationship.
haha. i have so much gains. i am contented enough alr.
i am really feeling thankful for everything i own now.
i will try to put this broken friendship aside.
this is what my sis taught me. (:
till then,
LOVES.